so its sunday afternoon, im sitting in the library at school before i go to work at 5..life is confusing me lately, i feel as though i am headed down a very dangerous road that i have been down before and im pretty sure i know how the whole thing ends..which makes me ask myself..why am i doing this again? why exactly am i letting history repeat itself? armed with the knowledge from my past mistakes, i still seemed doomed to repeat them again. i do cannot say i understand it and maybe it is going to require some real introspection on my part to get past this, but who knows maybe it will turn out better? knowing me, probably not. but we shall see...