i just have one question..why? why now? the timing on this could not be worse..i mean last time i was able to seek refuge by driving home all the time and getting out of this place..i dont have that option this time..i am stuck here because the massive amount of work i have to do before i graduate..why the fuck is the timing on this so bad?..why does it hurt so much? i didnt even do anything wrong..i wish i was a completely stoic unemotional person who didnt care about anything.just cold, calculating, rational...i sometimes feel like it would be so much easier to function..i would never get close to anyone and if i did, it wouldnt matter because i would have no emotional attachment..fuck emotions..champion rationality!........ok obviously that is no way to live but right now, it seems like one hell of an alternative to this bullshit