so i sit here in the library for possibly my last time writing my last paper as an undergraduate student at sru..i am terrifed, i dont want to graduate..probably b/c i have absolutely no idea what i am going to do with my life right now..my emotions are so scattered recently, i dont even know to make of them..i mean its a mix of a bunch of things going on right now..but most important i think it is my safe, secure identity as a college student that is being taken from me. i went to this poli sci reception thing yesterday too and i realized there are a lot of people i am going to miss...as much as i may not have wanted to come to school here in the first place and as much as i bitch about it, i am going to miss it...it has turned into home without me even realizing it..if that even makes sense..but i better stop writing..i can feel tears approaching...uggh FML (i really hate it when people say that but it seemed appropriate)