Hello Again

so its been a while, i dont particularly care for updating this thing b/c i dont think anyone reads it but every once in a while its ok, b/c writing down my thoughts is a good thing...anyways my life is i think i might say in a word, contented, not happy b/c there are still many things im lacking that i want..but i am going to school again which i think is turning out to be a good decision..i love learning and being educated esp. now that i am taking all classes that i want, i have a real passion for philosophy and i love learning second language..it had been 2 years since i took spanish classes and i love it..but yeah thats the nerd in me, i have returned to work at a place that i thought i had left for good at the beginning of 2008 and now i am back, but serving this time and it feels completely different...it almost feels like new job even though i worked here previously for like 6 years, but i am so far liking my job....i am actually really good at it, i mean its not terribly difficult..but the people i wait on are so nice and i am nice in return and i make good money..i feel like i have a real ability...[so says the other millions of servers too] haha but i mean its making me happy for the time being and fuck all the rest...i am doing what i want with my life for now and i have decided making myself happy has to be a priority..but beyond that it is more than sufficient to say that if a year from now, i am still doing this, i will not be happy..grad school needs to happen..in the most urgent sense of the word....which requires to study and do better on the GRE and the longer i put it off, the harder it becoomes..which is why it needs to happen [again urgency] soon and i need to go b/c i know that i am intelligent person capable of doing a lot with my life and my talents...anyways bye