so its august 22, over two months since i updated this thing..yeah i didnt get that job, sucks ass and recently i have been fired from the only job i had which was my only source of income, i turned 23 recently..wow.enough said, yeah i am rambling and the thoughts im typig are completely unrelated and have nothing to do with each other but yeah oh well..this is straight from my head..anyways life these days makes absolutely no fucking sense to me...im gonna go back to sru this fall and take more undergrad classes in philosoophy and spanish..which i am not sure makes any sense at all, but im bored and if im going to be living in this area for the next year, i need to have something to do besides work...my mother and sister are vehemently opposed to the idea, which i guess i can understand...they think i am wasting money, b/c yes at this point the only way i am paying for it is through loans..sucks,..but oh well, whats another 7,000 at this point?..i dont mean that, but its my decision and its what i want to do, i like education...so there..lol..beyond that i leave for myrtle beach tomorrow for like a week for a vacation with my family which i am really looking forward to, unfortunately i just hope i can enjoy it considering the vast amount of uncertainty that currently occupies or rather is my life recently. im trying quite intensely to find another job..i have seven applications in and not ONE has called me..i mean they are only restaurants and hotels and i have experience, i just want one phone call, being unemployed scares me to death right now..i need money and im not asking mom and dad for any(more)..anyways im hoping something works out soon..ttyl